I often imagine my brain-states in colours and tones. I know the exact colour and texture of my depression and my anxiety, my dissociation and my exhaustion. I know the flatness and madness and sharpness of all, the pace at which they breathe behind the eyes. I'd been looking for the visual language for what felt like forever and finally, I've made something that feels close enough.
'Color This Brain' centers the self as character for a six part vision-board on mental health and what neurodivergence can look like in living colour. A mind in six parts, sixteen images and honest hues.
Model: Byenyan Bitrus
ONE:
THE CLIMB
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/82a313c2-e61d-4d65-bfb1-3ea5e05ce01f/0/0/0/0,0,3456,2304,3456,550/0-0-0/c3515b33-1570-425f-8f96-59b831d36c0f/1/1/Pushed_me_to_the_edge.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037467095~hmac=bb487cb17223f850f40593febb843033dc964e05f129d8c37af0d35a3ae357be)
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/82a313c2-e61d-4d65-bfb1-3ea5e05ce01f/0/0/0/0,0,3456,2304,3456,550/0-0-0/733e7a74-1472-4479-b53a-e8703748e388/1/1/sbkjd_copy.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037467095~hmac=bb487cb17223f850f40593febb843033dc964e05f129d8c37af0d35a3ae357be)
Dissociorange
TWO:
THE SUMMON
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/82a313c2-e61d-4d65-bfb1-3ea5e05ce01f/0/0/0/0,0,3456,2304,3456,550/0-0-0/eeb654d1-7482-4d32-bd4b-b91d99fb5ffc/1/1/Sample_3.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037467095~hmac=bb487cb17223f850f40593febb843033dc964e05f129d8c37af0d35a3ae357be)
Midnight Blue
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/82a313c2-e61d-4d65-bfb1-3ea5e05ce01f/0/0/0/0,0,1500,1018,1500,550/0-0-0/b4fb5ee2-2f0f-49a5-93c0-317a3d001ac0/1/1/twotwo_fin-4.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037467095~hmac=560d37882c2d0a25f6d9475b311182dc617a4cd542e36f21528f8d8bcb751668)
Doubled Cyan
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/82a313c2-e61d-4d65-bfb1-3ea5e05ce01f/0/0/0/0,0,3456,2119,3456,550/0-0-0/d1c7eabb-ee77-4559-9e59-851fd68d6518/1/1/vjdekrfblfrlf.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037467095~hmac=4300ea71c08c256faea49ed77328d70b0ff098903315ca5f2338b72363c49107)
Exhausted Blue [Depressed Hue]
THREE:
THE FRACTIONS
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/82a313c2-e61d-4d65-bfb1-3ea5e05ce01f/0/0/0/0,0,1500,1000,1500,550/0-0-0/028f909d-9cc6-47bc-b90e-50f11908df0e/1/1/CANON_Canon_EOS_700D_3271104-3286657915.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037467095~hmac=b27d32d9b65f28eeae1ca93e6eae8109ff039fa9872d84ed0afa2f6e98a5fed1)
Blink
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/82a313c2-e61d-4d65-bfb1-3ea5e05ce01f/0/0/0/0,0,3456,2304,3456,550/0-0-0/a8992c3f-92fe-4726-8509-cc35f3fba5b1/1/1/vb_gh.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037467095~hmac=bb487cb17223f850f40593febb843033dc964e05f129d8c37af0d35a3ae357be)
Howl-genta
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/82a313c2-e61d-4d65-bfb1-3ea5e05ce01f/0/0/0/0,0,1500,854,1500,550/0-0-0/a38f4cd5-8bd4-49ae-b278-ba4ae2f11d1a/1/1/guboibob.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037467095~hmac=97267c1be3ddad943fca90b684faa02360f8c7d5fe5f38cc90f1d2db8c2bf824)
Frac-chsia
FOUR:
THE FADING
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/82a313c2-e61d-4d65-bfb1-3ea5e05ce01f/0/0/0/0,0,3427,1957,3427,550/0-0-0/29a6c78d-c941-43e9-a1ad-6508ff8dd244/1/1/behave.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037467095~hmac=d849e549739a10c038879f0fb54ce7f15720fa34e5af2337c07501f76c139ef9)
Brownstone
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/82a313c2-e61d-4d65-bfb1-3ea5e05ce01f/0/0/0/0,0,1500,1000,1500,550/0-0-0/7ea900ec-25df-482c-937b-f521947851e3/1/1/CANON_Canon_EOS_700D_5871552-58871051658.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037467095~hmac=b27d32d9b65f28eeae1ca93e6eae8109ff039fa9872d84ed0afa2f6e98a5fed1)
Bronzxiety
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/82a313c2-e61d-4d65-bfb1-3ea5e05ce01f/0/0/0/0,0,1500,1000,1500,550/0-0-0/6a92f29d-b1ce-481a-b053-41c620953428/1/1/anxious_violet-3.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037467095~hmac=b27d32d9b65f28eeae1ca93e6eae8109ff039fa9872d84ed0afa2f6e98a5fed1)
Catatonut
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/82a313c2-e61d-4d65-bfb1-3ea5e05ce01f/0/0/0/0,0,3456,2304,3456,550/0-0-0/2e6b7394-37a0-49b6-bea7-73f723e3a3a4/1/1/jghgb.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037467095~hmac=bb487cb17223f850f40593febb843033dc964e05f129d8c37af0d35a3ae357be)
Buriawn
FIVE:
THE SMALL DEATHS
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/82a313c2-e61d-4d65-bfb1-3ea5e05ce01f/0/0/0/0,0,1500,1000,1500,550/0-0-0/5a267ea5-08c2-4998-96b9-b23a9657584e/1/1/9002880-90184332555-3.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037467095~hmac=b27d32d9b65f28eeae1ca93e6eae8109ff039fa9872d84ed0afa2f6e98a5fed1)
Numb Gold
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/82a313c2-e61d-4d65-bfb1-3ea5e05ce01f/0/0/0/0,0,3456,2062,3456,550/0-0-0/e650c4ec-9254-4b1e-87bd-001f06a981fa/1/1/badblaq.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037467095~hmac=5b94bca65b48bdf761ada7462e38ab68f8aaba3da5a8cc7b56d14f80ca3ff512)
Dead Black
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/82a313c2-e61d-4d65-bfb1-3ea5e05ce01f/0/0/0/0,0,1500,1000,1500,550/0-0-0/77d7e527-aeb2-47ec-ac97-96c28e6f7e04/1/1/CANON_Canon_EOS_700D_8803136-88186892494-3.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037467095~hmac=b27d32d9b65f28eeae1ca93e6eae8109ff039fa9872d84ed0afa2f6e98a5fed1)
Claw B(l)ack
SIX:
THE HARDENING
![](https://format.creatorcdn.com/82a313c2-e61d-4d65-bfb1-3ea5e05ce01f/0/0/0/0,0,1500,1000,1500,550/0-0-0/7361d713-933a-4698-8910-35b29ddd7b84/1/1/blablabla-4.jpg?fjkss=exp=2037467095~hmac=b27d32d9b65f28eeae1ca93e6eae8109ff039fa9872d84ed0afa2f6e98a5fed1)
Hallucilver